Saturday, March 15, 2008

Dropping The Ball

Sometimes you are so focused on holding on to the ball that you fail to realize you are already alone in the court. You have been running around clutching at the ball trying so damn hard to win that you never paused and considered if the person you thought you were playing with wanted to be in the court or not.

Suddenly, you realize, that person was just standing there near the line the whole time, just standing there watching, waiting, and not knowing what to do. While you, you played your heart out and carried that ball like it was the most important thing in the world.

Then it dawns on you that you are actually playing it alone and that you are already tired of playing the game alone. You know you can play it forever but you begin to think that what you do not have is a willing opponent. You then begin to feel sad because you know you no longer want to play, that you want to step out of the court. You are sad bacause you know, once you step out, you may never want to come back again.

You stare at the ball one more time. You stare at the other person one more time. Then you drop the ball...and walk away.

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